Or my other favorite… “when you’re older”
Life is funny that way, because, they were right.
I can’t unlearn what I know or erase the memories.
(Freaking nearly photographic memory)
I’ll never forget the softness of your lips
Or the gentleness of your fingertips on my skin.
It would have been better for me to never known
Because it’s all I have now, memories that torture me
My soul bleeds for a few moments more
Screaming to revisit that angelic time
I held you in my arms
Addicted to a sliver of the past, forever gone
Never to come again.
A weight was lifted, a crush realized
With the final blow, ending it all too quickly
I would have given you all that I had
Hoping that it was a dowry almost worthy of you
With the slim hope, that all I am would have been
Enough for you to say yes?
While I want to be happy for you (and I am, sort of)
(I’m always on your team regardless)
Because I want you to you to be happy forever
(even if it’s not with me)
But my spirit weeps alone, because I wanted to be
the one your happily ever after was with.